It’s dark in the corners of our village church and the light sometimes struggles to find its way in especially when the days are hazy as they often are, but when it does, the contrast between the light and the darkness is so striking it can create a moment of introspective illumination … at least for me.

People don’t come here as often as they once did and while I think it very beautiful, I only feel the ghosts of self-recrimination and regret. I’m sure some housekeeping must be necessary to aid in sweeping these feelings away, but I’m not sure where to begin. The instruction manual no longer makes sense to me and the teachers who garner the most attention feel false.

I usually learn best by doing, but sometimes when I am unsure … I wait.

I tend to be fairly private about my questions of faith and thoughts on God. My experience with the Christian community in general tends to makes me think of the story of “Goldilocks and the Three Bears,” where there are lots of extremes and a little girl who’s looking for “just right.”

8 thoughts on “Waiting

  1. While you’re waiting, pray. 🙂

    It’s rare for Christians to agree about absolutely everything but there are a few “non negotiables” of Christian doctrine that they must agree on. I’ve always struggled with getting my faith & doctrine “just right” but God doesn’t work that way. Even if we had all our doctrine lined up just right, we could still miss heaven. Jesus is our only in.

    I really like the photo. It’s perfect for this post!

  2. I like that this image wasn’t “prettyed up” and the cobwebs show so well. One can read so many things into that given a good imagination!!

  3. Hi Elizabeth! I have been so absent from blog reading… and I’ve missed so many wonderful posts and photos here… gosh. I have been browsing a lot.

    This one struck the most though – it’s a topic I’m diving into with five friends at the moment and each one facing this question from their own unique angle… including myself. No easy answers when it comes to finding where your soul belongs. Each path is unique to the person who walks it. xx

    Michelle of Crowsfeet blog

  4. Beautifully written, spot-on clarity. I loved this post and agree fully with the wandering and the wondering that is the mystery of deep faith. Thank you for this.

  5. Yes, thank you for this, Elizabeth. I too have been absent and missing your blog. I have so much catching up to do.
    I’ve started a whole new journey of my own. As I read your posting, I couldn’t help but cry. It is time for me to stop waiting and take the first step. I now have the strength to let all the demon’s out of my baggage….

  6. Waiting is a wise choice. I don’t go to church often, but I wait until I really, really want to be there. Then it is a deeply satisfying choice, not an obligation fulfilled to look “religious” or faithful.

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